k so i'm sure you all thought I was done with this thing...but I don't think theres many of us out there who COMPLETELY give up xanga.

So as of lately, I have been kind of upset because my future is so uncertain, as far as what I want to do with my life. Forever I thought I was going to be a teacher...I do teacher cadet in high school and kinda figure out its not for me..but I go to ECU and try to start it anyways... well I gave that up and came back home to good ol JCC.

By this time, I was thinking I was going to be a dental hygienist. I look up everything about it online and at Wake Tech you are supposed to go to a information session to even be eligible for the program. I schedule my session and April 21st I went to it. It was SUCH a dissapointment. I knew it was not an easy program to enter. The lady giving the information said that they only allow 24 in a year...last year 190 applied..that means 160some get turned down. I almost wanted to cry when she said this. It's also based on your grades and its a point scale, you can get extra points like if you've worked in a dental office and what not. Well I don't have all A's and I haven't worked in an office so its almost impossible for me to get in. So I'd have to wait a whole year to apply again and wait...its a big risk and a lot of money and time wasted. So I have now decided not to enter this career.

So today, I finally have a day off of work and tonight I got on the computer and just started looking on the wake-tech website. I found "Office Systems Technology" and the description says: "It prepares individuals for positions in administrative support careers. It equips office professionals to respond to the demands of a dynamic computerized workplace." So i'm like YES this is it.. I have always pictured myself sittin in an office and getting to dress up everyday..typing a lot and doing stuff at a desk.. HERE WE GO! It says "Graduates should qualify for employment in a variety of positions in business, governemnt, and industry." WOW I am so excited now because I have something to look forward to.

I have been somewhat down for the past couple of weeks being so unsure of what to do. I am the type of person who likes to have a plan and be on time for everything. Not knowing what I was going to do made me feel like I was late for an appointment. Which I hate. So I am very happy and excited for my future now.

I'm moving to Raleigh August 1st with my favorite lady Greggan Capps and I know what I will be doing and what classes I will be taking which makes me a happy woman :)

This weekend I will be taking off of work and heading to the beach with my favorite people and celebrating my birthday which is this Friday (May 12).

Sorry this was long, but I needed to let it out!